beautiful soul

2007-04-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

it has been a week filled with activities.. totally drained when i got home..

to start this off, i finally got gold for my IPPT! Didn't really work hard for it though.. am happy tt i got my techniques for broadjump right this time round.. and my 2.4km timing to back to below 9min! wahahz, it's been some time since i last did that..

also, sry pals for the slow updates here.. have nt mentioned tt i've been keeping a diary ever since getting into sispec. will pen down my troubles into it, as i dunno who to consult when i feel moody.. hahaz, but i'll still update la,. no worries abt tt:)

nxt, i had 2 live firing this week.. how should i put it.. it was indeed boring waiting for my turn, and time wasting too. But when my turn came, it was fun! tt sort of feeling is beyond my description.. impact frm the metador was simply fantastic!

hmm, have i ever mentioned i got to know this online friend frm nj? she's 4 yrs younger, but quite nice a person ba.. we have nt spoken in msn before, as we communicate only through mails..just like a pen pal, i can tell her my probs.. even though she dun have my blog add, but still thank you.

alrights, going to rest le.. it's been only 3 hrs since i got home.. cyaz~

cw

2007-04-01T00:02:00.000-07:00

went to the court at toh guan this morning.. started raining before i hardly played.

dropped by IMM.. searching high and low for my shoulder guard.. the pain is getting worse:(

passed by the optical shop, saw a familiar face staring out of the shop.. think lyn nv see me walking past ba.. work hard and do well for ur attachment!:)

returning to camp today.. darn sianz.. dun even wish to go back.. i miss home madly, even though i'm sitting on my bed typing this entry.. sighs..

cw

2007-03-31T03:07:00.000-07:00

was wondering how to start this entry but here goes..

getting into sispecs isn't tt bad afterall.. the training is tough of course, but it's more enjoyable compared to BMT in tekong. The trainees will be holding leadership position such as platoon commander or even company sergeant major, and we will be assessed based on on our performances while conducting our roles.. oh! Push up , sit-up , chin-up, they're just daily routine for us.. all these gave me only muscle aches, physical aches..

was extremely happy tt lyn called me when i was down the other day..really really cheer me up a lot.. thanks!:) went down to parkway to show my appreciation e following day..

haix, things i wished for always dun happen.. in fact, they happened in the opposite way! was darn sad after the msg, dun even know how to initiate a conversation after tt.. there were times when i took out my phone and wanna msg, but i simply dunno wad to say now.. hopefully things will turned out fine, the way it used to be..

oh yeah, to all my friends, do take care yeah! got a friend who was fell on her face, bitten by dog.. how suay can one be..

cya guys.. i miss section 4

cw

2007-03-15T04:48:00.000-07:00

rented the movie lakehouse today.. cried during the show! perhaps i'm really touched by the story ba.. fancy waiting for 4 yrs! i'll wanna be like tt too.. true love is worth waiting i guess?

2007-03-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

oh well, finally had my passing out parade le!
it was quite a memorable yet sad week.. we (me and bunkmates) are seperated le!:'(
maybe everything has to come to an end.. it's fun knowing these grp of friends, for they're simply GREAT!

thanks mum and dad for taking time off!

wo my bunkmates, i wouldn't have survived!:)

to jeremy kum: thanks for leading the section well! found out we shared similar views and opinions on love.. sighs, in the same boat ba..

to daniel: u're simply great with immense leadership potential! nice singing with u.. muz rmb to tell me ur stories eh!

to edwin: how can i live without u in my section! ur music brings our section together, ur stories kept us entertained. thanks lord for presentin ur friendship to me! all the best in MDC eh! u muz nt be tempted by HENG!:)

to wee chong: the kan-chiong spider? nah! i feel tt things should be done asap too so tt we dun have to rush when the time comes.. better prepared than being punished! oh well, all i can say is go for it ya? dun let go of someone u love! dun be like me, a foolish guy who regrets when it's too late!

to yong kuan: whoa! ur story is a replica of my sec sch life! have more confidence in urself.. dun just wait for opportunity to come knocking la.. muz try too hor.. lin jun jie rocks! glad tt someone in the bunk like his songs.. when my voice recover, we'll chiong k-box!

to jesper: my friend cum teacher, thanks for all the magic tricks u taught me! the sensation is always so fresh whenever u perform, no matter how many times i've seen the tricks before! wish u luck in my posting!

to you quan: my buddy! thanks for waking me up in the morning for the past weeks.. our modern house-husband to be! someone who's fit, a born leader but on the other hand loves to wash clothes and go "shopping".. any takers?:P

to jeremy heng: now this cute little boy who surprised me e most.. joker appearance and behaviour, this boy here is another scholar frm my section!( there're 5 of them anyway) apart frm tt, he's a national snooker player! gosh, scary record eh.. dun wry, just remind u of the RATS and u'll shiver in fear and disgust again! lalala~

to jonathan: our future doctor to be! "know u ppl for only 9 weeks, 6 yrs for my AC friends, how can compare!?" kaoz, can't believe u said tt to Heng.. lolx! nvm, on the account tt jon is a nice guy, i'll forget abt tt.. (cheaper rates for me nxt time!)

to hsien wei: fortunately i met u again in army.. if nt i'll would have lost a great friend! a friend since pri sch, rmb how we play soccer almost everyday back then.. lolx. u're just marvellous la, always being the nice nice person in bunk who's easy going.. hope u'll remain tian mi mi* with ur gf eh!:P all the best!

to chang yuan: stop gaying ard with heng! lolx, can't forget the last 2 days of BMTC.. wad sort of ceremony is tt!? fortunately i'm strong enough to break away.. hahaz..if nt i'll be another victim..oh,i gotta apologise for being straightforward sometimes.. hope u dun take it to heart yeah? u're a fun guy, and we really see the change in u.. jia you!:)

2007-03-10T08:23:00.000-08:00

ouch! feeling bottom low la.. even one of my closer friend said it's unlikely to get into local uni, and whether i've considered private uni.. reality is harsh, gotta face it somehow though..

"Others' opinion of You does not has to become Your reality".. came across this phrase in army..so hard to live up to tt phrase.. keep thinking i'm getting dumber and dumber these days..so wad if someone praise me for my character? so wad if i'm able to do sports tt others can't? i'm slow in academics! nv know it feels soo terrible.. esp when someone close implies tt.. sighs..

cw is dumb and stupid! argh!!!:'(

2007-03-10T07:57:00.000-08:00

the most memorable week of BMT..

embarked on the 24km road march on tues.. i was surprised tt i was able to survive the 8hrs talking, singing, and even telling stories! hahaz.. bunkmates suspected me of taking pills to increase my level of energy:) lolx! however, the stories i told them are all my sad stories ba.. perhaps i'm still struggling with the past..

oh, was ranked 4th in my platoon! it was such a pleasant surprise to me.. i'm now a step nearer to OCS.. hopefully i can get into it. with tougher trainings, perhaps i can put my mind off certain areas ba..

the 2/4 clique visited NTU and NUS today, before dropping by IMM to have dinner with mr kwa.. sighs, they were talking abt how bad their results were, although they score 3As or 2 As? lolx.. nv spare thoughts for me! but understand how they feel ba.. each individuals have diff expectation for themselves.. failing to achieve the goals always feels so disappointing isn't it?

caught in a dilemma now? should i go for monetary fulfillment or spiritual fulfillment? someone plz advice me!

2007-03-03T18:32:00.000-08:00

wah! have been missing in action for quite some time.. there were some prob with the blog earlier, but had been solved, thanks to kathleen!

oh, caught up with liying last weekend.. it seemed ages since i last had a conversation with her.. nevertheless, it was an enjoyable trip ba.. guessed i really like the view frm vivo's rooftop. i muz get a camera soon to capture it!

oh well, results was out 2 days ago.. it's was traumatising as i scored CCD.. gosh, am i destined to be such a failure? Putting in soo much effort to score such sucky results.. i'm now in a dilemma, nt knowing where to proceed.. i really need someone to shine the light on me, guiding me out of this complete darkness.

it's abt 10 more days to passing out parade.. after which i'll be having a 12 days break.. posting will be out on 26th of march.. OCS is beyond my reach le la.. nvm, will take a step at a time frm now.. no point thinking too much as things do not always go as planned.. sighs, enough for today le..

2007-01-25T22:26:00.000-08:00

finally out of tekong after 2 weeks.. guess this will be a long entry..

first, my bunk mates! they're such wonderful people ard! there's one magician, another national player for snooker, and much more! There two "clubs" in our bunk. the 'S' club 7 and Mayday.. 'S' club 7 coz there're 7 of them taking S-papers and Mayday coz only 5 nv take them.. lol!

moving on to the environment,
while some ppl are complaining abt mosquitoes prob on the mainland of spore, wait till they come to tekong.. hahaz, the mosquitoes there are COMMANDO TRAINED! hahahz.. can drew blood thru clothes leh! however, i've mastered the skill of killin them will just ONE HAND, came in rather useful.. hehx! also, the birds there are always on 'NIGHT SHIFT'.. coz they're forever crowing at night! darn irritatin initially, but am alr pretty used to it.. hahaz! oh yeah, the sky there is pretty clear, found tt out when i was waiting at the shooting range.. too bad i dun have camera with me!

now, the programs..
can't really rmb except we're always eating and eating and eating! 4 meals a day, tts craziness..
oh, the first 2 weeks is kinda slack la.. nth much except the footdrills, lectures etc.. i just love shooting! Practices at IMT is nt bad la, but the life range is a really good experience! shooting with real rounds in my life..the recoil, the smoke released and the thounderous sound.. way cool.. think i got a pretty good results too, could have been better if nt for the lane!
IPPT categorisation was an eye opener for me.. everything is done with the help of devices.. anyway, i nearly failed tt man! managed to scrap thru it.. hahaz..

also, life in BMTC is quite stressed for me.. i'm so called the arms squad personal in my platoon.. anything cork up (which is v v likely given we have to draw guns everyday), i'll be soooo screwed.. my weekends will be gone then.. was given warning for rusty gun, darn suay! broke down tt day actually..nvm abt tt..

Booking out the first time is really a really sensational feeling! how should i put it, deprieved of entertainment? lolx.. should i be sad or happy, for i'm bookin in tml le! sighs..

hopin to get into OCS.. it's a route i really really muz take.. pray hard for me eh!
cw

2007-01-09T04:32:00.000-08:00

Feeling a bit lazy as i advanced into the brand new year.. so lazy tt i dun wish to update.. but so many things have happened these days, such tt i'm forced to make a trip here..

alright, shall first begin on the orientation..
i guess i've got the best tribe among the J1s. Although they're nt as active as the previous one i had, this tribe has got one of the nicest ppl ard! i was so touched by their gestures, and the card they gave is perhaps one of the best i might recieved in the year 2007! hope to see them real soon..

nxt on the night with my best friends..
had dinner with the usual clique at plaza sing's Swensen.. it was a last minute arrangement, but still they wanted a farewell dinner before my CAMP IN TEKONG. hahaz! perhaps, perhaps the dinner gave me another "spare tyre" ba.. haha! thanks mr kwa for the treat..

also, i'm v unlucky these days!
my darlin mp3 button is faulty, so i have to get it repaired.
internet modem's power adapter is faulty, have to travel all e way to paya lebar to change it..
went out today wo bringing my ez-link card..have to pay extra for the fare..

will try to upload more pics soon.. ciaoz
cw

2006-12-26T06:04:00.000-08:00

oh well, recieved the letter frm the air force abt a week ago.. think they won't wan a fat pilot la.. hahaz, coz the plane can't take my weight! or perhaps i'm nt gd looking enough to be a pilot? most prob both la! nevertheless, feel quite sad coz it's a great opportunity and career? guess i'm destined for other greater achievements! wahaha:)

oh, i'm running almost everyday these days.. averaging from 25-70mins ba.. realised nt really AVERAGE.. but seriously, i feel tt i'm slimming down! however, it doesn't really matter la.. going into army soon anyway.. nt as if i really bother.. sighs.. looking forward to enlistment day. it'll be a break frm studies, and can see macho guys for 2 yrs! lolx.. yesh yesh my female friends, will try to intro hot hunks to u all la:)

2006-12-17T04:25:00.000-08:00

woot!~ finally, my phone/internet connection is back!

during these days when i went missing in action, nth much happened ba..
went on my longest run since i quit cross country yesterday though.. i ran frm my
home to bukit gombak mrt station, took a 5 mins break before heading back!
darn satisfying.. took almost an hour.. however realised i'm still nt as fit ba.. throw up
water while running... got caught in the rain too..

oh yeah, have been having this weird dream everyday.. guess i've been thinking too much abt stuffs.. well, update some other day.. ciaoz

cw

2006-12-12T05:42:00.000-08:00

prom took place exactly a week ago.. haven recieve all the photos yet.. so just make do with a few ba:)

took this place at mingbang's place before we set off for prom.. we're "outstanding" isn't it? lolx

class of 2007, had loads of fun taking pictures with them tt day.. i'm really sry for nt taggin along to the club eh!

Zm and me! lets see who got the smallest pair of eyes..

my study gang.. we slog it all out for A's! eh, who dun anyway?

will be back with more pics nxt time:)

2006-12-09T07:54:00.000-08:00

suddenly feel like writing, so am i here in the middle of e night..

Behind tt pseudo smile,
A weary man i live.
Uphill tasks awaits,
Obscure road ahead.

A life without goal and direction,
A life without any meaning.
A life which revolves around myself,
A life not worth living indeed.

An answer is all i seek,
The reasons behind existence of life.
Enlightenment i pursue,
Clarification to rid any doubts.

sighs, i'm at it again.. feeling lost and tired..

will be uploading my prom pics soon.. so just wait!:)

cw

2006-12-03T07:10:00.000-08:00

a song which made me cried the most this yr.. guess it deserved to be posted ba.. a song which hold significance meaning to me:)

That's when I love You- Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what

2006-12-01T04:34:00.000-08:00

sighs.. have been vomittin after meals these days.. am i alright? i really duno.. hopefully it's just physically stretched ba..

2006-12-01T01:36:00.000-08:00

my mei(sk) and xm taking pic with my phone during our chalet..

hahz, the weather seems horrible..
huh!? how come no more ya kun toast for me?! hehx

2006-11-28T06:22:00.000-08:00

had a sec 2 class chalet with the most wonderful friends i've ever made.. too bad only got a few pics!

they're fantastic friends of mine! hahaz.. won't mind spending more time with them (hope they won't mind too)
going sim lim tml.. more pics soon!

2006-11-27T08:46:00.000-08:00

i wanna start afreash on this blog, as i enter the nxt phase of my life..
therefore i've deleted most entries of the past, and keep only those i wanna rmb..
yup, i'm feeling great right now.. wad my mei said is right ba.. dun wanna talk
abt it anymore, and won't wanna be reminded of that person too..

coolness, these few days are way cool.. spending time with my sec 2 classmates is always
so great! the nicest ppl ard, friends worth dying for ba..(hopefully la) hehx
will upload more pics, and less words!

2006-10-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

Open Arms

Lying beside you, here in the dark,
feeling your heart beat with mine.
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere.
How could our love be so blind?
We sailed on together, we drifted apart,
and here you are by my side.

(Chorus)
So now I come to you with open arms,
nothing to hide, believe what I'm sayin'.
So here I am, with open arms,
hoping you'll see what your love means to me -open arms.

Living without you, living alone,
this empty house is so cold.
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near,
how I've wanted you home.
Now that you've come back,
turned night into day,
now I need you to stay.

(repeat Chorus)

v nice classic.. go listen!

2006-05-30T05:36:00.000-07:00

hahaz, the crazy class i have.. it's really fun and stressing on this class, but no regrets knowing this grp of friends!

2006-05-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless as he turned around to leave

and still I have the pain I have to carry

a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time

I never thought we'd be here

never thought we'd be here

when my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see it

couldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep

only in hopes of dreaming

that everything would be like is was before

but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time

I never thought we'd be here

never thought we'd be here

when my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see itcouldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time

would you ever wanna leave it

maybe you could not believe it

that my love for you was blind

but I couldn't make you see it

couldn't make you see it

that I loved you more than you will ever know

a part of me died when I let you go

and I loved you more than you'll ever know

a part of me dies when I let you go

it's really a great song isn't it? Blind by lifehouse. have sent to magal. doing hmk le, ciao~